melancholy sundays

After almost 21 years, I've finally realized that there will be some days when I will be feeling inexplicably blue. I used to have these "sad days" and thought that there was just something wrong with me but then I realized that because I keep so busy, I just let things "roll off" of me, or so I think, and then there comes a lull of inactivity and it all catches up and I'm a little sad for a few days. It has been one of those crazy weeks and as I was settling in to get some more work done after church this morning, I realized that I should probably take some "me" time. For a young woman in her early 20's, this is surprisingly hard for me to do. My "me" time usually consists of a short cold shower in the morning after my run. Definitely not complaining, because I love my busy life! I hate being "bored" (by the way, there is no such thing as boredom, there is always something to do.) and I love being productive so I've just gotten used to mixing work in with my "relaxation." But some days, you just have to sacrifice productivity for some peace of mind. In high school whenever my friends would skip (something that my overactive conscience would not let me do) they would call it a "mental health day." That's what I'd like to call my day today. I'm in my Christmas jommies curled up in my great-grandmother's crocheted blanket with my pup and some roasted veggies, some tea, and a movie. Oh, and phone is going off, too! I'm going to get some reading done today and maybe try a new recipe and I'm not going to feel guilty about letting my work go for a few hours! If you haven't taken a break in a while, I highly suggest doing so! I haven't even put in my movie yet and I already feel so much better.

xo, e.m.